I’ve noticed lately that I’m really pushing back from all things “supposed to.” Things filled with obligation, not necessarily commitment, have really started to grate on my nerves. As I strive to live a life of intention, I’ve realized its important to strip away all the worldly imposed life elements.
Why do I work out? Because I want to be healthy, and I like the challenge.
Why do I work? Because I need money to pay off my silly debts and buy Ben & Jerry’s.
Why do I go to church? Because I feel its necessary for my sanity to worship and take the focus off of me.
Why do I facebook? Because my friends expect me to, awfully close to “I’m supposed to.”
Why do I give things up for lent? That’s a tough one…
I’ve been giving up ridiculous activities and decadences since I was seven. I’ve given up sugar, coffee, swearing and many other “unchristian” activities. The forty days have never really felt that long to me, I’m a control freak so its never bothered me to limit myself. But now as I look back, I wonder why I even gave up my guilty pleasures. Sugar and swearing aren’t inherently bad, so I fear I might have done it because it was expected. Its also possible that I just like the challenge.
So this year, I’m taking up a new practice instead of sacrificing. We’ll call it a new habit if you will. I think life changes take a little practice, so I’ll be taking the next forty days to train my mind and body to focus on God first thing. My snooze button is officially dead today. Tomorrow, when my phone beeps I’ll be up to start the day slowly and centered.
If I can get up on time for forty days, I can do it for the next forty years.
